Posted by Amy
on Tuesday, November 24, 2009
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For some reason over the years I have some really strange re-accuring dreams. For instance as a teenager my family and I lived in a very nice house in Auckland which looked out onto a popular golf course - very scenic and pretty but this house has for me alot of not so nice memories. I was a mixed up, confused sad and angry person back then and so was my dad. Our family life was full of arguments and negative energy which lead my mother and I on the pathway to search for peace. In this house we got into the new age movement, very extensively too so for me this house doesn't have very good memories. In my dreams I'm usually with the husband and our children and it's the same story - we've moved to Auckland and purchased the house to live in. I always feel reluctant and yet excited to be there again and when I wake up I'm scared to go back to sleep again because I don't ever want re-visit it. Weird I know...
We live in a lovely town in a lovely house and yet some of the antics of our community amuse and yet sadden me. Every once in a while I hear about a couple breaking up, everyone pretty much knows each other here so normally I know the family concerned. In the last 3-4 years I could guestimate that figure being around the 6, 7, 8 couples? Hey, being married or in a relationship is hard enough but it just seems that the breakups occur because of infidelity, one leaving the other for someone else and not sure how the children involved handle it either.
Oh yeah...can't forget the last little snippet. My brother and sister in law are going through some heartbreaking family stress with their youngest baby who is only 11 months old, please keep them in your prayers.
Posted by Amy
on Sunday, November 22, 2009
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The husband has been on day shift, I've baked a gingerbread slice for the lunchboxes this week, the washing is up to date, dishes are done, the kids have been outside in the rain and bought grass in on the tiles despite being asked not to, yes we have rain but it's drizzle and I've been having internet connection issues all day.
So...as most of you know I'm on facebook and it's been good in the fact that I've been able to catch up with old friends I haven't seen for years and for keeping in touch with family members. My mother has 8 brothers and sisters who have had children (my cousins) and they've had children so the family has grown to over 100 now. One relative who is the daughter of one of my said cousins has been estranged from the family for many years. Her dad was in a relationship with her mum and he apparently left her for someone else when she was a baby and since them over the years she's had nothing to do with him. I always found her to be a very nice girl, shy and troubled but nice. I'm not sure if her dad had ever tried to make amends or apologise but it strikes me as very sad that relationships can get to be like this. I totally understand where she's coming from but maybe I really don't have a complete grasp on it because I haven't had it happen to me but yeah...it just seems sad. I was amazed and glad she added me to her list.
Anyway, summer is nearly here and I'm not only wishing it was winter again but that we were on holiday in Queenstown again.
Three years ago the husband and I travelled there for a conference in which the company he use to work for were holding. So scenic, lovely and different down there - I'm almost wishing we could go back there again. Flight costs have dropped dramatically here during the recession so here's hoping that might happen.
"Learn to depend on yourself for fulfillment, attention, interest and consideration. The satisfaction gleaned from others approval is temporary and superficial. Work toward wholeness and happiness by being willing to expand your own expectations. Embrace the commitment and sacrifice necessary to cross your own emotional boundaries.
Posted by Amy
on Friday, November 20, 2009
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Although it's not quite warm outside considering it's meant to be late Spring it's lovely to see some action going on in my garden. This weekend I really need to get stuck in and try to get some weeding done.
Earlier this week I happened to spot lots of vege, herb and flower punnets for sale at our local shop. Seeing as I need some more for my garden I snapped up some Marigolds, Alyssum, Chives and Parsley. I plan to pop the Alyssum in my flower garden and the rest can be placed in various areas in with the veges. Did you know that Marigold repels nasty bugs like whitefly?
And...lastly the husband and I were treated to an impromptu concert by my two younger ones, apparently my daughter has been teaching her brother the basics of piano playing - so cute!
Posted by Amy
on Thursday, November 19, 2009
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This is my song for this week - I will be here by Steven Curtis Chapman - one of my favourites. It reminds me that no matter where my spiritual walk goes, whether it ebbs or flows God is always there...waiting for me.
I think that in the last couple of years my faith has, due to selfish reasons of my own, felt like it's been on the back-burner. I miss not having God there with me, talking to me, just being there.
God is like my anchor, my lifeline, my counselor...I need Him back.
Posted by Amy
on Tuesday, November 17, 2009
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And it seems like Christmas is getting closer. Unbelievable how many adverts are now showing up on tv and not only that but I'm trying to think of what I can afford to get the kids for presents this year.
After paying my car repairs last week we still seem to be getting no further with paying bills and I think we're going to need to do something to try and make some headway. I suggested to the husband that once the car payments are finished in January it might be an idea for us to organise to automatic payments to come out each week so that it's all taken care of - something worth thinking about to try and take the worrying away, as for presents...not sure about that one yet.
November for us is spring and it's almost like lots of people are still having bonfires. My oldest attended one last night that one of his friends was having - lots of fun!
Apart from all this I have a major craving for pesto, black olives and sun dried tomatoes...mmm
38 years old, live in a small rural town in New Zealand, married with 3 children, collector of anything retro or vintage, love scouting around in op-shops, puttering at home, interested in family genealogy.
80's rock music Vintage musicals Anything vintage Autumn My electric blanket My friends & family New Zealand Old movies Rain on the roof at night NZ Rugby Scented candles Warm cosy nights Winter Pumpkin bread with cream cheese icing Fresh fruit Vegetables Good friends Fresh Lattes
For some reason over the years I have some really strange re-accuring dreams. For instance as a teenager my family and I lived in a very nice house in Auckland which looked out onto a popular golf course - very scenic and pretty but this house has for me alot of not so nice memories. I was a mixed up, confused sad and angry person back then and so was my dad. Our family life was full of arguments and negative energy which lead my mother and I on the pathway to search for peace. In this house we got into the new age movement, very extensively too so for me this house doesn't have very good memories. In my dreams I'm usually with the husband and our children and it's the same story - we've moved to Auckland and purchased the house to live in. I always feel reluctant and yet excited to be there again and when I wake up I'm scared to go back to sleep again because I don't ever want re-visit it. Weird I know...
